It hit hard
like a cold shard of
drugged street ice
an anxious diamond
valuable, sharp and
loudly loosely precious
Laughter, loud,
wild crazy smiling antics
facade, make up so limiting
as A One Trick
Shallow Pool Party Pony
Knows...
Vapid, vacant, listless
Spring To A Sleeping
Hypnotised Mind
The School Yard Babies
bullies, eye brow Tatts
and pregnant paws
of indulged unwanted roots
The off Spring Burdens
The parenting plan awry
Go A Weigh, away, run,
flirt, fuck, fool, flay
gender positive patriarchy
the friends washed clean
Little Wons Hiding Inn
Drunk Laughing
wall paper cracks and
possibly piss poor preparation
To Let
Blood and pus and tears and Truth
wash away the pretence
for presence.
It was so simple
Now It's Seen
past tense
I Am
Not Safe With You
I Am
bounded buy
The Shallow Face
A piddle Puddle needed
of shallow coming and more coming
Home To A Deeper Space of Expansive Love.
The Inclusive Love of Tears and sadness
This Full Felt Terror Was My Soul
My Liberation
I was sitting, simply smiling You were there, simply, sharing Two worlds collided,
I Saw You Kneeling, inner fire presence felt
When Two Worlds of Water and Fire
Collided, present alivened, tense
Don't ask me What I feel is true
Stars, Don't have to tell me
I Am Now Softer for meeting you
Celestial Eyes Speak a fire even
deeper than your precious heart,
I'll Follow You
When The Water Fires
and when Stars Go Blue
by Tony Searl
Soft light Dancing, It is not just This Laughter
as Two Worlds Colliding, When Stars Go Blue.
Let Me See, Feel, Taste, Know, Love,
All Deeper Shades of You
"In those moments when we are held, we are truly seen our nervous systems
down-regulate, our minds soften, our hearts open,
and we come into an ancient sort of rest.
That rest that we've been longing for in a lifetime that always
seemed just out of reach. The rest from becoming.
While our true nature as open, luminous awareness is the ultimate
holding environment, as tender human beings we are wired
to rest within a relational matrix.
To enter into this field with another – weaved of the alchemical substances of presence and of space – is one of the great mysteries of the embodied world.
Held by another, held within by our own hearts,
or held by a star despite the pain and
confusion and hopelessness and doubt -
somehow we are already held.
It's not something we must earn or deserve or frantically search for.
Held by the morning light as it comes into a room,
by the song of the birds, by the imaginal world.
The Flow of Life. Like Water
The Warmth of Life. Like Fire.
The Freedom of Life. Like Air
The Elements of Life. Like Earth.
The Beauty and Love of Life
The Aligned Elements
Supporting and Reciprocating.
Alignment is easy
to sense
when we trust
The Safety
Of The Self's
(and then other's)
Deep Container,
We are received
We are seen
We are heard
Exactly as We Are
No Judgement
No expectations
No changes required
No selling or up levelling or interuptions or secrets or drama
We simply
Be
Long
and It Feels Safe
Feels Trusted
To Be,
to expose, to surrender, to express
It All,
to give and receive
to share Deep Truth
not with a latent curiosity,
but a tender heart felt care,
To communicate directly and share subtle energy,
not fishing with baited hooks to force information
but softly caring,
(with awareness, humour, presence and wild wicked laughter...)
not saving, or advising, or fixing,
Just Simply Letting Each Bare Moment
Be
Be The Safe Whole Container
of who You,
at Your Consistent Core,
Are.
Be More Exposed,
Be More Vulnerable,
as mutual trust and alignment deepens,
The Spiral Rises, as eagles soaring on warm thermals
as mutual trust and alignment deepens,
The Spectrum Broadens, as life richly expands horizons,
Unfoldment,
this gentle rising
as all of you comes Into and attracts
The Light
Of Who You Have Always Been.
Trust,
There is No Such Thing as
Ready
Or Try
Simply
To Be
Or Not
To Be
Is still,
The Purpose
"The Question"
so clear and concise
If you vibe as Being
Human
(To Your Owned Felt Core Values)
We Will Be
Aligned
I Will Feel You.
Your Eyes Say It All
Safe, Open, Humble, Mischief, Kind, Alive
Long Before You Speak
Or smile
or try
or Do
Come Share That
Aligned Flowing Energy
Be Alive,
Dance, Laugh, Sing, Cry, Hug,
A more tender Touch
Somewhere all of This and More
Shared with Silence,
(and Music, and Roads, and Dogs, and laughter, and Burritos)
A Solitude Together
Under The Vast Ever
unChanging
Sky
I do not love you as if you were a salt rose, or topaz or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off. I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance, risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
Earth ~ Sky ~ Fire ~ Water
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; So I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you, so close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
Excerpt from the unpublished collection of John O'Donohue
"If we heal our old wounds of shame and unlovability we may no longer be able to take refuge in the unconscious trances of inflation and unworthiness that have accompanied us in close personal relationships, that narcissistic organization that each of us employs to one degree or another in our (often misguided) quest to stay safe and be seen, to receive some mirror back to our basic goodness.
At some level we know this and while we long to awaken from the trance some part of u...s is just not so sure about it all. This hesitation, uncertainty, disorientation is not some cosmic error or mistake but an emissary of the beloved itself, come to reveal the contradictory, wild, alive nature of healing and what it asks of us, which is everything, really.
Just try to imagine for a moment engaging in our lives without those familiar reference points. Even if that organization has been interfering with the intimacy and joy that we yearn for, it has provided a well-known axis around which we have been able to orient in the world without having to feel too much groundlessness and tender exposure. It is not possible to imagine, ahead of time, what our lives would be like without the habitual lenses through which we learned to navigate. It is important to honor those parts of ourselves that are wired to hold onto prior organizations as we turn into the unknown and give them permission to return to the stars.
While the prospect of stepping into the raw, naked, open unknown may seem thrilling—a life free of our conditioned history—the consequences are profound. It is an act of kindness to prepare ourselves to confront quite a lot of contradictory and paradoxical feelings about the whole thing—on the one hand a genuine desire to heal and transform while on the other some real trepidation about what we know is going to be required. To bring a new level of compassion to ourselves and our journey in our honoring of what the implications truly are."
A year from now we'll all be gone All our friends will move away And they're going to better places But our friends will be gone away
Nothing is as it has been And I miss your face like Hell And I guess it's just as well But I miss your face like Hell
Been talking 'bout the way things change And my family lives in a different state And if you don't know what to make of this Then we will not relate So if you don't know what to make of this Then we will not relate
Rivers and roads Rivers and roads Rivers 'til I reach you
Rivers and roads Oh rivers and roads Oh rivers 'til I reach you
Rivers and roads Rivers and roads Rivers 'til I reach you
Rivers and roads Rivers and roads Rivers 'til…
I love them. I crave them. I seek them. I follow them.
Let a new life happen to you, merge,
as Turning Points
OUR TWIN SOLSTICE
Born quietly from the deepest night~
“No one knew the name of this day; Born quietly from deepest night, It hid its face in light,... Demanded nothing for itself, Opened out to offer each of us A field of brightness that traveled ahead, Providing in time, ground to hold our footsteps And the light of thought to show the way
Rivers and Roads A Journey, No Destination Let Us Drive This Unknown Road Together.
moral code,
morals, morality,
moral stand,
moral principles,
moral values,
rights and wrongs,
principles,
ideals, creed, credo, ethos,
rules of conduct,
standards (of behaviour),
virtues,
dictates of conscience
moral principles that govern a person's behaviour or the conducting of an activity.
Thank you to our many ethical small local businesses.
Christmas trading brings out the truth of who you are as ethical human Beings, firstly.
So easy to purchase local, when ethics, and core aligned values lead.
The Sky Reigned as One
Certain Queen
Poured scorn and fire and brimstone
"Peasants, Let Them Eat Bread!"
She said...
From Her Special Ivory Tower.
The Weigh,
The Wake,
The Was When
Is Clear
Of That Beauty Full Dark
Sweet Sugary Heavily Seeded
Cloud.
The All Hail,
The All Soaking,
The All Conquering
Yeah.Nah of a Dangerous
Masquerade Ball.
Half Masks, Half Lives
Half Loves. Half Truths
wearing Secretive Golden
Manipulative Slippers
As A Pumpkin Coach
Called Out From The Side,
"See The Fall, Dark Knight
Of This Sad Solstice Soul.
A Mere Serving Lass Wrapped
In Sharp Shards of cold icy diamonds,
To See Now The Hot Burning Truth
of This Sacred Divine and
Holy Scared of Life
Prostitute"
We thank you Cauldron
Tasty Witches Brew
for the alchemy of
Fallen Fear and Frothy Fluffy
The Light and Toil and Trouble.
The Autumn Coach
Leaves
Falls, at 12, True North
suggests you're On It.
So grateful for sincere traders, authentic locals, these wise life experienced folks, especially here at Christmas Time.
Noy trying hard to sell, or sign up members or offer "free" community service to build email lists for post Christmas spam.
The shop keepers who really do care, the merchants who suggest with no hard sell, the trusted local business with no agenda and actually cross promote those who you or they may perceive as "competitors"
Thankful for one shop owner today who had one style of what I wanted but suggested I check out his opposition across the road before I committed to purchase.
Wow, that's cool, he could have tried hard sell, but he didn't.
He was open and honest and I will make his store my first option for future purchases,
He was not afraid of losing a sale, which he did, but he was being transparent with the request vis a vis the range and quality of the stock he specialises in. He didn't lie. When he could have.
Thank you Local Sports Store, I will spread the news about your awesome service.
The "right" Soccer balls are fussy like that.
Legit world cup, scooooore!
No, you are NOT a marketing stall of cheap petty discounts
You are NOT special. You ARE Unique.
One of a kind, a grain of sand, a rain drop, a snow flake.
Maybe Specially Indulged by parents who Never Say No.
Who Believe their own publicity of a Wunder Child...
Who sincerely and innocently believe they are above others, lack humility
Are These Really Our "Special Adult Snowflakes...?"
Of Now.
So dismount your hobby horse
if you have put your Self on That "Special" Pedestal
Come Down and Get Grounded
Get Real AND Be You, True,
Beyond The Veils of Illusion
Maya, So Unique, So You, So True,
But Certainly NOT Special.
I say dear, I say love, I say snow,
Petal, I'm kNot So Not Special,
Just Unique
Often times when we heal, what we once called a wound now becomes a gift.
What we once called unfair becomes a blessing.
What we once called heartache now becomes strength.
What we once called dis-empowerment now becomes mastery.
What we once called unconscious now becomes wisdom.... What we once called anger now becomes assertiveness. What we once called darkness now becomes light. What we once called judgement now becomes understanding.
In this world of duality the soul needs the contradictions and full range
of experiences to actualize itself, this is the unraveling nature of awakening
and the dance we do in this polarized realm.
When we feel devoid of light we must remind ourselves we need
darkness for the stars to shine upon the backdrop of this world we live in.
That we are always making steps back home to our essence
regardless of how the outside picture looks in the moment.
We are always making our way back to wholeness and understanding
our contradictions as we love them and integrate them back into our heart of compassion.
One of the greatest measures is knowing that when we transform
we see we are both simultaneously all of these things yet none of them.
True vulnerability is not about showing your heart expecting that the other will hold it.
True vulnerability is about showing your heart for the sake of giving space to that heart.
And that’s all our Heart really longs for: it longs to be revealed, so that it is realised in the eternal truth of what it really is.
That’s where the human heart becomes a pathway, a bridge, a medium.
That’s where the human heart meets the Spiritual Heart.
And the true nature of the Spiritual Heart is God.
What the other will or will not do is another thing.
But when they have the guts to offer the same degree of vulnerability the meeting has the potential to become immense.
It creates a circuit of opening: the more you open – the more your partner opens, the more your partner opens – the more you open. The circuit spirals, ever up and ever on.
Sooner or later through the opening we realise that there is no end to opening.
The deeper you go the deeper you go.
And through opening we realise that what we are really opening to is our godly nature, our true self, our innate purity and original innocence.
We open into our true nature as Love, as Freedom.
And that’s where Love and Freedom not only co-exist, but are synonymous.
When you find love,
you'll find yourself.
What is planted in the soul
of each person will sprout.
God writes spiritual mysteries in our heart, ... where they wait in silence to be discovered. Many ways to reach God, I chose love. I lost everything that I have, I found myself. I am a patient of love you are like medicine for me. ~Rumi
Most people make the mistake of thinking about the future.
They say, "In the future I'll be happy, when I get married,
when I get divorced, when I find a new job,
when I quit my job and do nothing.
But I say to you, unless you are happy now ... there will be no happiness in the future. Every ideal condition you're looking for, you have to acquire it now. If you want peace of mind you can’t run to another country or to another city to try to find it. Peace of mind exists exactly where you are. Peace of mind is you. But you think it's something on the outside. There is a person who hates their job, and they say, "I'm going to move to Seattle. The people are nicer there. I do not seem to get along with anyone at my job. I'm unhappy here in Los Angeles." So you move to Seattle. The environment is new, everything seems to be all right. Within six months Seattle becomes Los Angeles. Same problem, different people. You've got to take yourself with you wherever you go. You can’t escape from yourself. Do not believe that others will make you happy, that a new environment will make you happy. It may appear to do so in the beginning. Sure there are people who never stay in one place long. They get bored and go somewhere else. How long can they keep it up? In the last analyses you have to confront yourself. No one can bring you happiness. No one can bring you peace except yourself. You have to stay where you are, even though the environment or your circumstances may seem unpleasant in the beginning.
The wise person remains where they are
and begins to work on themselves.
They begin to transcend the body-mind .
To the extent you begin to transcend the body-mind ,
to that extent you find happiness and peace.
~Robert Adams
T37 Everything can be met with "Who Am I?"
Holy Chalice,
flow fullest cups
come gentle nectars,
baste in this cauldron of
incredible sweet mead,
magic, alchemise
Yours, mine, ours
an always emerging
drops of dew cycle
as brook bubbles
dams swell and river
roars, grows, cracks and kisses
back to deep swollen lips of Truth,
Ocean shores.
"Usually when we speak of material we have disowned and placed into the unconscious, we're referring to less-desirable experience such as fear, rage, shame, and despair. The shadow is seen as the dark repository for our so-called negative aspects, i.e. unhealthy dependency, unacknowledged narcissism, unmet hopelessness, and the looming ghosts of our unlived lives.
But it is not only negative material we dissociate from. Many of us have lost the capacity to access, embody, and ...express more “positive” experiences such as contentment, pleasure, creativity, sexuality, intimacy, and aspects of our own uniqueness, especially if to do so would conflict with the psychic and collective status quo.
While it is more difficult to imagine, we can also disconnect from the simple experience of joy, that spontaneous feeling of elation at being alive, a sense of our basic goodness which is not in need of improvement.
For example, if our embodiment and expression of joy triggered anxiety in those around us or led them to shame or pull away from us, we learned that the natural, human experience of joy is not okay, and even potentially dangerous.
We begin to associate joy with a neuroception of “I’m not safe” which can be incredibly confusing to a ripening nervous system.
As a little one, we learn to disown any state of mind which has the potential to disrupt the tie to critical attachment figures.
This capacity of repression is intelligent, creative, and often protected us from overwhelming dysregulation.
But many of us long to know joy again, feel alive, and fully participate here.
We sense we may no longer require such protection and long to remember the simple pleasure and delight in pure being.
To re-train ourselves is not easy as we will have to step back through the disorientation and sense of annihilation that repression has served to keep us out of.
But it is a path well worth exploring.
To allow ourselves to see the ways we have placed not only “negative” material into the shadow, but how we have split off from the positive as well. To take that sort of risk, to remember, and to participate fully in the bounty that has been laid out before us."
Well, Ha ha Ho ho and Hee hee, probably the biggest thing about this week (that I didn't even say in the report!) is that the overwhelm of TOO MUCH TOO FAST is probably gonna continue.
Have you been feeling it?
Wow!
All this expansion on so many realms in so many ways can leave us some flabbergasted at the end of the day while still not getting everything done!
Whew!
If you don't know your boundaries you may find them by your body and mind JUST BURNING OUT!
It can be fun, but fun can wipe you out too.
However, I think the cosmos has it all under control and knows that we all need a big exhale (Sagittarius) after inhaling for so long (Scorpio)!
So don't keep holding your breath - let it out and let it go!
Burning Seed is an experimental gathering dedicated to creativity, collaboration and a cash-free community — conceived, built, run and returned to nothing again by YOU.
People new to Burning Seed often assume that a Burn is like a festival — a mostly passive experience where event producers organise everything and you just need to rock up for the show.
Instead, a Burn is created by its participants, not for them.
There ain't no fancy-pants production company curating from up on high or digging our ditches down below. There are no sugar-daddy sponsors, advertisers or stalls either. There is only you + me and a gifting economy.
Together, we pool our resources, skills, ideas and imagination to create the funding, the city, the entertainment and the experience itself.
We also take care of our day-to-day needs and the environment, while we're there and when we leave.
It is this very act of collaboration and participation that makes Burning Seed special, and our week culminates with the burning of the Effigy and the Temple before the city returns once more to forest.
But while we still call Australia home, our heritage is the global family known as Burning Man, which began life on a San Francisco beach in 1986 and has been taking place in Nevada’s Black Rock Desert since 1991.
Each year, tens of thousands gather on an ancient lake bed to create Black Rock City, a whirling dervish of radical expression, collaboration and art that lasts a week and culminates with the burning of a wooden man and temple, before the city disappears again without a trace.
This annual torch for creativity and community has jumped Black Rock City limits, sparking a subculture and regional Burns around the world, including Kiwiburn, Afrikaburn and Nowhere, among many others.
And that’s where we come in.
As one of two regional Burns in Australia, we have built our own Red Earth City on the east coast since 2010; first in Bellingen and now in Matong State Forest, NSW.
Our kissin' cousin, Blazing Swan, is showing how the west was won by inaugurating a WA Burn in 2014.
Our experiment in radically participatory creative community has jumped our own Red Earth City limits as we continue to bring these principles home to other projects under the umbrella auspices of Burning Man Australia.
A Burn is created by its participants, not for them.
Believers open their minds to the truth on condition that it fits in with their preconceived ideas and wishes.
Faith, on the other hand,
is an unreserved opening of the mind to the truth, whatever it may turn out to be.
Feeling, on the best other hand...
is allowing the heart and bodies wisdom to flow freely, intuitively shape shifting to wherever The Truth of Home is in each bare moment. Come with me, feel into this Light Dance of Life
Long Night of Light Movement
Attunes To Life's Beauty
As warm summer heat rises and flows
Radiant star palettes feel her sway
This Cosmos Needs Nothing to shine on
and share infinite Happy.
Sips, Sun Sets, Food, friends and fun
The Music, Night Muse
Creative, aligned Life Lovers
Feel Freedom,
Abundant Gifts of Alive Air Tonight
We Love You and
Thank You
For Now
There is such a tremendous power in never holding back.
This is where we reveal our splendour, through our most vulnerable selves. It’s about committing to your thread and staying with it, until the end. Don’t just drop off half way. Keep on. Until it feels excruciatingly vulnerable. ... And then keep on keeping on. When we give all we have moment by moment,
it’s not that we get the favour back. We get the world back. We get to experience pure love. And then I find myself holding a friend’s hands and crying together,
just because we love so much.
And this is worth everything.
It’s the depth of connection that I deserve.
This is where I meet them and God.
Some people on this planet may try to make you seem like you are hard to love.
They may say that you are impossible,
that you feel too deeply or that you are simply too much.
The truth is, you are not hard to love.
Their wounds make it impossible to behold the truth of your brilliance and they lash out.
This is not on you, it is on them.
Though it can be difficult to hear,
the truth in their words is that they don't have the ability to love you
to the depths that you deserve.
For the right person who is open and has healed their wounds,
loving you is the easiest thing they will ever do.
It will be natural and organic, from the depths of their being.
Their spirit and mind resonates easily with yours.
There is a simple flow of alignment.
That is the kind of person you deserve,
not someone who makes loving you seem like a chore.
Never let anyone make you believe that you are hard to love.
Wrap yourself in a robe of so much self love,
that it doesn't matter what they think,
because you know you are worthy of more.
Never settle for good or convenience or practical or tepid.
Full Moon rising in Gemini on November 22nd/23, 2018
As we emerge out of Scorpio’s deep well of emotional memories, we can release them to burn up in the Phoenix’s flames.
As Scorpio’s emotionally instinctive Snake transforms into the Eagle’s insight, there is a sudden burst of awareness as the Phoenix rises from the ashes of these transformations.
The fire sign Sagittarius follows the watery sign of Scorpio. Out of the dark depths comes enlightenment. We’ll especially feel this change now that Jupiter has left Scorpio and entered Sagittarius. Jupiter in Scorpio expanded our vision so we could see our shadows — both personally and collectively. In Sagittarius, he can help us find our truth now that we’ve released the old wounds that taught us our life lessons…” This Gemini Full Moon’s energy belongs to Jupiter, so it can feel very expansive and energizing. Both Gemini and Sagittarius have fun energy — energies that are curious and expansive, social and physical, mental and philosophical…
This Full Moon brings together the Sun and Jupiter in Sagittarius…Jupiter/Sun in Sagittarius can get self-righteous if he doesn’t watch out, but otherwise, he can be an inspiration to others. The Gemini Moon just laps it all up, reflecting back both the good and bad ideas floating around without judgment. Mars in Pisces wants us to be spiritual warriors and challenges us to look at things with an encompassing and compassionate vision that includes what is normally left out of the discussions — those rejected, needful things we’ve pushed into the collective unconscious. Like homelessness, poverty, war. Like a woman’s worth and a child’s needs or the care of our elders. It urges us to listen to our Native people and Mother Earth. It asks us to be kind to ourselves and hopeful for others. Mercury is the planet said to ‘rule’ this Gemini Full Moon So be conscious of what you say, mean what you say, and say it with kindness and intelligence. Neptune can make your mind fuzzy or it can fill it with true images, which you need to interpret correctly. It’s really a great time to fine tune your listening skills. And it can be a time to really imagine what you want this next part of your life to look like.”
